Monday, July 10, 2006!
HandWritten on; 11:55 PM
im feeling angsty now.ANGST.dont really know the definition of that word.but yeah.i just feel that im feeling AH okay nothing nevermind shall stop trying to explain myself when i dont even know what im saying.): mm.just these pent-up frustrations in me i guess.and hearing stuff i so do not wish to hear.angry at some people.why are they so blessed.when they dont deserve it at all.i cant focus in lessons.math test wednesday which im so going to screw.how to pass when people say pretest is so damn easy yet you dont even know how to solve more than half of the questions.damnit.random chinese compo test first period tmr.
and when i need you so you are not there.crap.today in class i just had a sudden yearning for the studio.studio studio studio!dance dance dance.when you can simply let it all out.dance a good dance.and you will feel happy.ahh.simply the need to fling yourself around and go crazy.i dontknow.luckily for me,there's dance.marianne says joining ny modern dance made her a better person.i feel the same way.nothing that can replace dance.nothing nothing nothing.everything else in the world are all crap.im not a good dancer,but i owe so much to dance seriously.im so glad for dance tmr.i dontknow.just want to be with dance.be with the magic.be with the creators of this very special magic,my dancemates.juniors.everyone.just want to be with you guys once again.suddenly it just seems so long since i last talked to you guys.i know it has only been a few days,yet it feels so damn long.tmr.the music,the dance,the connection.that feeling.yes,tmr.thanks so much dance.thanks so much nymd.
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